And it starts. . AGAIN!

Well, I just got back from the hangar. Dropped hubby off for his first detachment (DET as we in the Navy call it) in this next deployment cycle. If you think about it, it seems like it will be a while before he deploys again. He will be leaving sometime next summer. (I know when but I will not post that on here). But honestly, the cycle starts today and that will make time pass by so quickly and I will be standing in the hangar bay with the USO ladies around me and I will be watching him walk to that plane again before I know it. The DET he is currently on is only 3 weeks. Three weeks is nothing. I can handle that no problem. But, July there is another one, September another, and December another. Then after the new year there are at least 2 more scheduled before they deploy. Now, I know as an educated Navy wife that these are necessary to the readiness of the strike group and essential to the continued training of the pilots and all that jazz, but that doesn't make it suck any less. It seems like they return them home to us and then a couple of months later they start the next rotation. It can be exhausting. And I swear to god if he is gone in September and misses maddie's birthday again, or our anniversary again I will be pissed. We have NEVER spent an anniversary together and this year will be the 5th for us, and he has NEVER been home for our daughter's birthday and she will be 3. I know it is really hard on him.

We were all ready to have another baby when we thought that the next deployment wouldnt be until 2010. But now that things have changed we are going to have to wait. Sometimes it sucks so bad knowing that the government is pretty much determining how your life is to turn out. It would be nice to say "hey let's have a baby" and then go do it not having to worry that your husband may miss the birth, or the first year of the kid's life. But this is the life we have and we will deal with what we get.

I am just looking forward to the day when his degree is finished and then we can make the decision of staying in and becoming an officer, or getting a civilian job. I know that is not too far away, but then again it is. But until then I will stick it out.

I just needed to vent a little about the cycle restarting its self. We can't seem to be able to catch a break.